Counting my Blessings

I do spend a lot of my thinking time counting my blessings - I guess you could say it's become a habit. In a way, that's what bothers me...

It's good to have a positive habit and yet I cannot help but feel a sense of .... of .... automatic response, and I am not totally happy about that. It reminds me of those prayers that people recite without really thinking about what they are actually saying (even if I think about what I am saying).

For some reason, I feel the need to 'upgrade' my gratitude. As I write this, an immediate question comes to my mind: when I say 'upgrade' am I thinking of quantity or am I thinking of quality? Both is the unequivocal answer that's just popped into my head.

OK then, let's deal with quantity first. It is true that I have more to be grateful for than I did - say last year - because a lot of things have happened that have given me a greater sense of security or a great deal of pleasure:

  • Regular money coming, courtesy of my wonderful hubby. Interestingly, money isn't important to me because of what it provides (although I am certainly grateful for food on my plate and a roof over my head) but rather because of what it avoids (monthly worries about whether we can pay the rent being an example)
  • My self-publlshed E-Books, courtesy of my lovely friend Lynette Allen.
  • Opportunities to speak publicly, something I truly enjoy, courtesy of the excellent team at the Brooklands Parade NHS Centre and the good people of A2B (Access to Business) in my home town of Wolverhampton.
  • My new website, courtesy of my hubby again, of which I am very 'humbly proud'
  • My recently renewed ability to dream and set goals again. I missed that so much when I was too ill to even think about the next day.

All  in all, I have a much bigger Gratitude Bag than I used to have, even if it was pretty big to start with.

How about quality then? Something has happened to me during (and as I emerged from) the worse of my illness. It is very difficult for me to put into words. The nearest I can get to it is to say that I used to feel (and think) that the universe/God was outside of me - even if it always felt very close. I now feel like the universe/God is inside of me. I realise this sounds strange but it's the best way I know how to put it.

As a result, everything I think or feel is ...... ...... enhanced, brighter, purer, frankly impossible to describe! Therefore, my Gratitude Bag needs to be made of a different material as well as be of a larger size. I think the bag itself is precious and now needs to be made of spun gold!

In practice, I have a sense this means counting my blessings  - not just consciously - but also while feeling intense joy.

I am really happy about that :D

Counting your moments

I was with my good friend Ted Matchett on Sunday 11th August, 1991 when he came up with the "Sophiagenics Core Credo" - Sophiagenics was his term for the gathering of insights / wisdom from the Holy Spirit.  He said:

 

"The Holy Spirit speaks to each and every person on planet Earth in every moment, 24 hours a day, every day, from our birth to our death: Jew, Hindu, Christian, Muslim, Buddhist, Jain, Taoist, Bahai, Shintoist, Communist, Agnostic, Atheist, Everyone, treating each person as though she / he is the sole object of God's love, care and concern."

 

Ted's understanding, which makes perfect sense to me and which you allude to with your "universe / God inside", was that we simply need to tune in to receive this universe of wisdom answering all the real questions that come to us.  If I remember aright Anna, in "Mister God, this is Anna", has a similar view on where God is in it all.

 

So, your insight is not strange, Gabrielle, but may not be commonly understood - it is a very special insight that would be worth holding on to ... and with Christmas approaching, can be linked to the ideas that "God is with us" (Emmanual) and that he acts through us.  We are his eyes through which to look with compassion on the world, ours his feet with which to go about doing good, our his hands through which to bless those we meet (Teresa of Avila).

 

With every blessing this Christmas time

Thank you Mike

I always LOVE your comments Mike - thank you so much for taking the time to write to me in this blog :0). xxxxxxx

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